THOUGHTS OF THE DAY:
So i havent written anything in a long while, not because i haven't wanted to but everytime i get on something interupts... Anyways so I have had a really good two weeks, truely happy and content. Im truely learing who my friends are. Its funny however, that although these two weeks have been utterly amazing, today ive seemed to find myself in this rut. Smiling has become so normal to me but today i can't seem to keep one on my face. Ive felt really disconnected with my friends this weekend like i dunno somethings wrong, yet i don't think any of them feel that way. I know its just something negative that Satan is trying to get me to dwell on, so im really trying to get over it. I found my snowball shoes yesterday, finally!!!! It was quite a challenge!!! Im so so so looking forward to this upcoming Saturday, im so glad im going with Russ, its seriously going to be a blast :) Haha speaking of Russ, he seriously has been keeping me on my toes and making me want to be smarter than I am. Today I got out trivial pursuit cards and just started memorizing them lol how lame!!! I really have a lot to thank him for lately. He has totally been a reason for all these good moods of mine and has continually made me laugh and get my life back on track, constantly encouraging! Even though he makes fun of me constantly its okay haha it makes life funny...and i swear one of these days ill be able to play volleyball without looking like a complete idiot!!! I hope this week is good, and that my happiness continues to remain, and that I get out of this little slump im in!
MUSIC:
A little bit of everything lately, honestly haven't had time to sit down and really listen.
SONG OF THE DAY:
Enough by. Barlow Girl
CRAVINGS:
Snowball
Consistent work
Graduation
Laughing
One of those hugs <3
Goodmorning beautiful among other things
Contentment (which is getting there)
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
Craving nothing.
THOUGHTS OF THE DAY:
Wow this week has been so wierd, like i really don't know how to feel about everything. I ended every form of contact with something that ive been constantly dwelling on for the past couple months, and honestly i feel such a burden releaved. I have really mixed emotions about it, but it was just time to go and move on with life. I have an awesome oppurtunity to start something so good, and finish something that never really got a chance to get started. My heart hurts for the past,not me but him, but reality is reality. I hope and pray for the best, but God has better plans for me, im worth way more! I really want to get my relationship with God back on track, i don't want to hide anything anymore im tired of that feeling. I'm crying for absolutely no reason right now other than the fact that im shedding every last tear i have for the past, its time. WOW. Im growing up. Crazy. I'm going to need tons of support but i know i can do it. Thanks for making me realize that (HIYA) you don't know how much it means to me!
MUSIC:
Reorganizing the current playlist!
SONG OF THE DAY:
Best Days of Your Life by. Kellie Pickler
CRAVINGS:
Nothing :)
I'm content.
Maybe a movie ;)
Wow this week has been so wierd, like i really don't know how to feel about everything. I ended every form of contact with something that ive been constantly dwelling on for the past couple months, and honestly i feel such a burden releaved. I have really mixed emotions about it, but it was just time to go and move on with life. I have an awesome oppurtunity to start something so good, and finish something that never really got a chance to get started. My heart hurts for the past,not me but him, but reality is reality. I hope and pray for the best, but God has better plans for me, im worth way more! I really want to get my relationship with God back on track, i don't want to hide anything anymore im tired of that feeling. I'm crying for absolutely no reason right now other than the fact that im shedding every last tear i have for the past, its time. WOW. Im growing up. Crazy. I'm going to need tons of support but i know i can do it. Thanks for making me realize that (HIYA) you don't know how much it means to me!
MUSIC:
Reorganizing the current playlist!
SONG OF THE DAY:
Best Days of Your Life by. Kellie Pickler
CRAVINGS:
Nothing :)
I'm content.
Maybe a movie ;)
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Over all good :)
THOUGHTS FOR THE DAY:
Wow its been along time since ive blogged :) Well i am currently the happiest ive been in a while. I have seemed to accept the cold reality that some things are just not meant to be, however i dont know if im ready to completely let go. Im so happy that i have a date to snowball :) and im very happy at who it is! Thanks Russ :D I need to find shoes badly and just havent had time! I start my class at BC next week hopefully i get an A this class too, but I think it might be a little more tough. Swim starts Febuary 2nd and im totally pumped but have a feeling its not going to be as fun as last year. All the boys are gone and its not going to be the same. The new freshman i think are going to be fun and i hope i can be a senior that they will remember when they swim the rest of high school, just like how i remember all mine!
Ive been really thinking how funny time is. My aunt told me that time is a healer, but also a revealer. That statement is so true and im seeing that more and more each day! Most of the broken relationships that i have had in the past year have been slowly fixing themselves and the peices of my life are slowly beginning to make sense.
My sister is turning 16 on sunday and it makes me sad. It seems just like yesterday i was planning my sweet 16 and i was still as innocent as she is. After 16 my life slowly started to change and now that im almost 18 im a completely different person! It makes me sad that im not going to be able to be with my sister to see her go through the same changes i did. I hope that she learns from my mistakes and stays strong! Shes a great girl and I really hope she doesn't lower herself like i did.
MUSIC:
Still on a freaking Jessica Simpson kick. I love her new stuff!!
SONG(s) OF THE DAY:
Still Don't Stop Me
When I Loved You Like That
Sipping on History
ALL BY JESSICA SIMPSON :D
CRAVINGS:
The goodbye to be sooner
Shopping
A hug that means something
A goodmorning beautiful
MAY!
New song lyrics
Silver boots ha!
Wow its been along time since ive blogged :) Well i am currently the happiest ive been in a while. I have seemed to accept the cold reality that some things are just not meant to be, however i dont know if im ready to completely let go. Im so happy that i have a date to snowball :) and im very happy at who it is! Thanks Russ :D I need to find shoes badly and just havent had time! I start my class at BC next week hopefully i get an A this class too, but I think it might be a little more tough. Swim starts Febuary 2nd and im totally pumped but have a feeling its not going to be as fun as last year. All the boys are gone and its not going to be the same. The new freshman i think are going to be fun and i hope i can be a senior that they will remember when they swim the rest of high school, just like how i remember all mine!
Ive been really thinking how funny time is. My aunt told me that time is a healer, but also a revealer. That statement is so true and im seeing that more and more each day! Most of the broken relationships that i have had in the past year have been slowly fixing themselves and the peices of my life are slowly beginning to make sense.
My sister is turning 16 on sunday and it makes me sad. It seems just like yesterday i was planning my sweet 16 and i was still as innocent as she is. After 16 my life slowly started to change and now that im almost 18 im a completely different person! It makes me sad that im not going to be able to be with my sister to see her go through the same changes i did. I hope that she learns from my mistakes and stays strong! Shes a great girl and I really hope she doesn't lower herself like i did.
MUSIC:
Still on a freaking Jessica Simpson kick. I love her new stuff!!
SONG(s) OF THE DAY:
Still Don't Stop Me
When I Loved You Like That
Sipping on History
ALL BY JESSICA SIMPSON :D
CRAVINGS:
The goodbye to be sooner
Shopping
A hug that means something
A goodmorning beautiful
MAY!
New song lyrics
Silver boots ha!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
accepted and happy :)
THOUGHTS OF THE DAY:
Well today was altogether pretty sinking boring, however i got my acceptance letter to SEMO!!! I am so happy, and it is all becoming a huge reality. Its going to be so good to just leave and get a whole new start! I totally think this is what God wants me to do. Honestly im a little nervous about whats to come, but i know itll be right. Im so glad that I have been talking to an old friend :) its so nice really i needed it. Ive almost got my mind off being sad at all about my past and just looking at it as something amazing in my life. I can't live in the past, but i still crave it. I want it all over again and ten times better. Hopefully that will happen in Missouri. I wonder if the people that i miss and think about all the time even spend 1/8th of their time thinking about me. I invest so much in people, and not alot of people invest in me. I want to effect peoples life in a huge way, just how my life has been effected by them. I wish someone would tell me that ive changed them. That would be awesome to me.
MUSIC:
I only have four bucks left on my itunes credit :/
SONG OF THE DAY:
Cheater Cheater by. Joey + Rory
finally found it :)
CRAVINGS:
Russell's pasta party
Swim season this year
Swim season last year even more!
March 17th, 2008... even though that is twindeling, which makes me sad
Hang out with old friends
August!!
A redneck :)
Change
A hug and kiss.
Well today was altogether pretty sinking boring, however i got my acceptance letter to SEMO!!! I am so happy, and it is all becoming a huge reality. Its going to be so good to just leave and get a whole new start! I totally think this is what God wants me to do. Honestly im a little nervous about whats to come, but i know itll be right. Im so glad that I have been talking to an old friend :) its so nice really i needed it. Ive almost got my mind off being sad at all about my past and just looking at it as something amazing in my life. I can't live in the past, but i still crave it. I want it all over again and ten times better. Hopefully that will happen in Missouri. I wonder if the people that i miss and think about all the time even spend 1/8th of their time thinking about me. I invest so much in people, and not alot of people invest in me. I want to effect peoples life in a huge way, just how my life has been effected by them. I wish someone would tell me that ive changed them. That would be awesome to me.
MUSIC:
I only have four bucks left on my itunes credit :/
SONG OF THE DAY:
Cheater Cheater by. Joey + Rory
finally found it :)
CRAVINGS:
Russell's pasta party
Swim season this year
Swim season last year even more!
March 17th, 2008... even though that is twindeling, which makes me sad
Hang out with old friends
August!!
A redneck :)
Change
A hug and kiss.
Friday, January 9, 2009
ill take the good with the bad.
THOUGHTS FOR THE DAY:
So today started out bleh. Today was supposed to be fantastic, but hey whatever over the screwy outcome with the supposed situation that was supposed to occur January 9th. I had a really good talk with one of my friends which got a huge load off my back! The day ended great with a starbucks run with the girls and haley making a house a home in albertsons :)
I decided that I can't dwell on the upsets in my day, it just makes things worse. However, I have been asking myself what if all day... but hey everything happens for a reason i guess?? At least i haven't already had the best days of my life...as kellie pickler would say.
MUSIC:
So Jessica Simpson's new country cd is really good, totally feeling most of the songs.
Me and my sister are supposed to record either this sunday or next sunday :) pretty excited for that!
SONG OF THE DAY:
Still Don't Stop Me by Jessica Simpson
CRAVINGS:
FREAKIN LUNCH WITH RUSSELL!!!
License
Car to be fixed
My own love story
March 17th, 2008
An old Ford ha
Old friends acting like nothing ever happend
A warm wind
A trip to our place
Goodnight beautiful
A date for snowball...ugggghhhh.
So today started out bleh. Today was supposed to be fantastic, but hey whatever over the screwy outcome with the supposed situation that was supposed to occur January 9th. I had a really good talk with one of my friends which got a huge load off my back! The day ended great with a starbucks run with the girls and haley making a house a home in albertsons :)
I decided that I can't dwell on the upsets in my day, it just makes things worse. However, I have been asking myself what if all day... but hey everything happens for a reason i guess?? At least i haven't already had the best days of my life...as kellie pickler would say.
MUSIC:
So Jessica Simpson's new country cd is really good, totally feeling most of the songs.
Me and my sister are supposed to record either this sunday or next sunday :) pretty excited for that!
SONG OF THE DAY:
Still Don't Stop Me by Jessica Simpson
CRAVINGS:
FREAKIN LUNCH WITH RUSSELL!!!
License
Car to be fixed
My own love story
March 17th, 2008
An old Ford ha
Old friends acting like nothing ever happend
A warm wind
A trip to our place
Goodnight beautiful
A date for snowball...ugggghhhh.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
need peace.
THOUGHTS OF THE DAY:
I made cupcakes and frosting from scratch today lol that was fun...I got so stinking sick!! I cleaned my room, well picked it up, and started reading the book due tomorrow for AP lit Metamorphis, which is horible and really dont want to finish. I would rather be finishing Love finds you in Miracle Kentucky :) I'm really sick of inconsistent people. I'm also getting extremelly tired of myself and where im at in my life...I know what will help me but I can't let go of the one thing keeping me from it yet (how awful is that). I found my Snowball dress its blue and silver and its "sweet" as my mom says, as in cute not awesome lol. Im so dreading school tomorrow, although Im super excited to see my girls and go to Hoyetts. One semester left!
MUSIC:
My iTunes refuses to burn a cd right and its so frustrating!
SONG OF THE DAY:
One Last Time by. Kellie Pickler
CRAVINGS:
Life to start
A stick of relaxation ha.
Hoyetts
The last time to be sooner so I can focuss...
License
My car to be fixed
A conversation that makes my heart skip a beat
Old friends
Ceramics last year ha.
New song lyrics
Peace inside
I made cupcakes and frosting from scratch today lol that was fun...I got so stinking sick!! I cleaned my room, well picked it up, and started reading the book due tomorrow for AP lit Metamorphis, which is horible and really dont want to finish. I would rather be finishing Love finds you in Miracle Kentucky :) I'm really sick of inconsistent people. I'm also getting extremelly tired of myself and where im at in my life...I know what will help me but I can't let go of the one thing keeping me from it yet (how awful is that). I found my Snowball dress its blue and silver and its "sweet" as my mom says, as in cute not awesome lol. Im so dreading school tomorrow, although Im super excited to see my girls and go to Hoyetts. One semester left!
MUSIC:
My iTunes refuses to burn a cd right and its so frustrating!
SONG OF THE DAY:
One Last Time by. Kellie Pickler
CRAVINGS:
Life to start
A stick of relaxation ha.
Hoyetts
The last time to be sooner so I can focuss...
License
My car to be fixed
A conversation that makes my heart skip a beat
Old friends
Ceramics last year ha.
New song lyrics
Peace inside
Friday, January 2, 2009
sick and tired
THOUGHTS OF THE DAY:
Im extremely happy to be home! Eight days is too long to be gone...especially camping. I had fun the first few days then it got really boring. I have totally come to the conclusion my family is totally tempermental and it bugs me so bad. I hate being bored absolutely hate it. I really need to spend my gift cards, hopefully I can tomorrow... Starting monday I only have one semester of high school left and im not scared of the future one bit. I want it to happen already. Im sick of making dumb choices and being stereotyped. I really think when people stereotype you into a category it makes you more suseptable to find yourself there, and i really hate that.
MUSIC:
Ellie got me a itunes card and im thankful :D
SONG OF THE DAY:
Hurt A Lot Worse When You Go by Toby Keith
CRAVINGS:
A good tan
Life to begin
Good food
A long walk
Graduation
My friends!!!!!
Hoyetts and everything that comes with it (including all my memories)
The old truck
March 17
An ending
Im extremely happy to be home! Eight days is too long to be gone...especially camping. I had fun the first few days then it got really boring. I have totally come to the conclusion my family is totally tempermental and it bugs me so bad. I hate being bored absolutely hate it. I really need to spend my gift cards, hopefully I can tomorrow... Starting monday I only have one semester of high school left and im not scared of the future one bit. I want it to happen already. Im sick of making dumb choices and being stereotyped. I really think when people stereotype you into a category it makes you more suseptable to find yourself there, and i really hate that.
MUSIC:
Ellie got me a itunes card and im thankful :D
SONG OF THE DAY:
Hurt A Lot Worse When You Go by Toby Keith
CRAVINGS:
A good tan
Life to begin
Good food
A long walk
Graduation
My friends!!!!!
Hoyetts and everything that comes with it (including all my memories)
The old truck
March 17
An ending
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