Here we go...

THOUGHTS FOR THE DAY:
Well yesterday was good :) Christmas with the Hights is always a laugh :) I got my INCIDENT anniversary medal and boy was that great! Tradition remained and we all went to see the movie, this year being Bedtime Stories, and went to Denny's afterwards. At Denny's ellie had a breakdown due to a ginger girl, her worst fear, and me and lyn continued to be stalked by this guy that was in our Stats class this summer lovely.

For today im off to the beach for eight long days and honestly don't know what im going to do. I can't tell anybody how much I truely dont want to go. My thinking positively is only getting me so far...boo.

MUSIC:
Me and my mom will have to agree on the music on the way to the beach LOVELY :D

SONG OF THE DAY:
So What by PINK (due to last night :])

CRAVINGS:
Junior year
My friend to come with me to the beach
Alone time
Shopping
A cowboy
Un beso
Caffine
March 17th
Peace of mind

WISH ME LUCK :)

Christmas Eve :]

THOUGHTS FOR THE DAY:
So last night I had one of the worst anxiety attacks i've ever had. I hate those things. People make fun of them, but they are so real and your skin just crawls. I really need some peace in my life, I think wayyyyy too deep into things. But today is Christmas Eve :] My cousin Jordan is coming over in a little bit to hang out, im so very excited! I wish he lived in town because he would be over all the time! Later on the Mechams are coming over for dinner, ohhh joy (sarcasm), but I suppose I'll deal. I'm excited about tomorrow, I love being with my family and can't wait to just have a day that nothing will be worrying me! I'm going to really try to make the best out of this whole camping situation...I always struggle with it but hopefully either Kasey or Mary get to come for a little while :]


MUSIC:
Have a playist of current songs that are helping me :) Samo Samo in this topic though!

SONG OF THE DAY:
I Can't Love You Anymore by Gary Nicols

CRAVINGS:
Jordan to hurry up :)
Tomorrow
Hanging out with family
Laughing
A big hug
Friends

*The list is short today but I'm honestly really happy today :]

Refresh

THOUGHTS:
I think I just need to keep myself busy so I don't have much time to think, when I think I just become melancholy, and im tired of being in a constant state of that. I've decided that my biggest addictions are because of my own insecurity. I live my life too much in song lyrics and have to realize that the people I think about when listening to the songs probably aren't even thinking the same things when they listen to them. I'm thinking that college is going to be better for me than what im expecting. Five more months and my whole life changes, and its funny how it completely changed nine months ago yet it needs another complete turn around.

WHAT IM THANKFUL FOR: (new just because I think I need to have it)
My family. I seriously have the best family in the world and take them for granted so much. I'm so thankful that I made a great memory with my cousins last night. Its funny what happens when your going to leave how you want to do things that were never important to you before. I'm totally realizing the importance of my family because in a little over six months i'll be states away from them.

MUSIC:
I think its funny how no matter what situation your in that there is always a country song that has lyrics singing your problem or your excitement. I think thats why I love writing music, cause maybe one day someone will relate to something I'm writing.

SONG OF THE DAY:
Cowgirls Don't Cry by Brooks and Dunn

CRAVINGS:
Deep breathe of country air
March 17th
A warm brown jacket
A good hug
A week of no worries
Recording time
Long drive with the past
Reunin of last years friends
Morning practices for swim
Satisfaction

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PS :)
Go watch seven pounds it will change your life!!

Another Day...

THOUGHTS FOR THE DAY:
Its hard to think I only have one semester left of high school, doesn't seem right; but at the same time does. I'm trying to get over this past year and its really hard. Its like I can't move on. I know the way to, but I don't want to follow it just yet...scary, but true.

MUSIC:
Me and Ellie I promise are going to be famous. I love how much time we've been spending together using the talents God gave us. We are both truely blessed, and I know I take for granted the talents given to me. Music is just natural to me and not alot of people have that.

SONG OF THE DAY:
Every Tear by Hillarie and Ellie Hight :D

CRAVINGS:
Crazy night
Cuddling
Missouri
A trip out to our spot
Last years swim season
Peace inside me
A phone that works on the outside!!!!!!
My License
For everything to just be fixed
My exema to go away (my head is currently one big scab and it hurts so so so bad)
A southern accent ;)

numero uno!

So im going to try this blogging thing,
just because i enjoy reading my uncles,
so maybe youll find something interesting in what i have to say :)

Thoughts of mine lately:
Reflecting back on this year throws me for a complete loop. I can not believe some of the things i've gone through. It amazes me at how much i've grown up, yet i still have so much more growing up to do. This urge of mine to be a rebel is never ending, and controlling it is hard. I love living life on the edge but the edge leaves a big oppurtunity for falling.

Music:
I have recently been writing alot alot of songs. Me and my sister are finding something we both are good at, writing and singing music. We are currently hoping to record in the upcoming months and we'll see how that goes... My dream is to be writing and singing my life stories, its so theraputic and really gets me through alot.

Song of the day:
What I Wouldn't Give by Blake Shelton

Cravings:
Hanging out with old friends
Christmas
Laughing really hard
Missouri
A warm hug
Cuddling
Coffee with Katie :)
My license
Quiet country
A good book
A rush